Nearly there

1/2 a day to go ! Woopee ! I think

I feel that i might actually miss school when i leave next year because in all these therapy sessions recently i've discovered that i'm quite sociable ! Never thought that before !

But i like being at school (when i get no homework and the work is easy i.e. end of term :L) because people have to talk to me ! I mean I have loads of friends - people who are nice to me and talk to me - at school! But out of school, its difficult to meet up with them because i'm a pretty average person:

i have 4 best friends who i love to bits and we hang out alot and have amazing laughs !
Great - but I want more than 4 friends ! Not best friends obviously but I want to socialise with other people too so that when they're all busy I can occupy myself with others

I love doing things with loads of people (e.g. break time at school on field with all the girls and boys from our year) but i'll never do that if I have no friends ! I feel like such a larry that only 4 people (other than fam) actually care about me

I want to be popular - but not like movie-popular, just popular in that I will get invited to things and people are around me and hang out with me because they want to and i'm fun to be around not because they have to !

And I may be being big-headed but I'm not a bad person and people do like me boys and girls, but i'm abit of an extra, i'll go with the crowd and i'm not really someone worth knowing and being friends with (or at least thats how I feel <- thats why I feel so unnoticed and there's really not much point in me being here!)

I try and be really nice to people and they like me for that but I don't know how to get onto the popular scale??
I'm trying to organise group events but i feel abit of a prat because i'm sure they've all got better things to do
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