It's 9.40 and I've had quite a big bowl of cornflakes. Won't be going to taekwondoe today because we went to the adolescent unit and they diagnosed me with anorexia so they won't let me do any exercise. They said i'm a BMI of 15.9 (42.6kg or 6st 10) and that under 17.5 is anorexic :S. Apart from GCSE PE this is do-able the only thing i'm worried about is that won't eating and no exercise just gain fat? Weight - which is good i guess, but the whole point of this weight loss was to lose fat and flab! I thought that muscle weighs more that fat so wouldn't tkd/punchbag at least be good for me abit to tone out all the weight i'm gaining. I had a big petite filous today (double pot) and feel ok, suns out and also my mums back at 2.30 which i'm excited for. So quite happy and tum feels ordinary not very hungry so quite comfortable now going off for a shower.
When dad and brother got back from tkd, and 1.45 I made some lunch (a big bowl of pasta with philidelphia and cheese sauce and a couple of chorizo sausage chunks. When mum got back I chatted to her about stuff and we thought raisins and almonds would be a good snack (alternative to choc and biscuits all the time). I hate this meal plan! We had a takeaway curry for tea and I had loads of korma (cause mum made me :@) I feel not sick, but very bloated and that my stomach is very big. My minds at ease - i don't feel guilty - but i don't feel proud either. I feel i ate loads today but i guess thats what i need atm.
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