I feel abnormal!

I know its always the same old nonsense about my stomach and that its too big - but i can't get away from it and i don't know what to do - I cheated on my meal plan ( i didn't have my afternoon snack yesterday or today and skipped my lunch and had it (which wasn't weight properly) when i got home from school and i didn't have my fruit juice with breakfast this morning ). I am now 46.3 kg which is 7st 4.1 lbs (102.1 lbs) I don't really know how i feel on this. I don't like it really i don't like the feeling that i'm gaining weight because i'm still in this mind set that my tummy is fat and the more weight i gain everywhere else the less skinny i look so my stomach will look worse

What do i do now?

I will talk to my dad when he gets home from work but what can he do? All he's going to do is tell me i'm not fat and not to think that and it does help abit to be reassured but i won't change my mind

I always get the feeling that my friends and family only tell me its not fat because they are worried if they tell me the truth that i'll become bulimic or just rebel and not eat anything and that they are thinking about my health (which obviously I appreciate) but thats their main focus mine is looking good.

I know that sounds really pathetic and i think so too but its just how I feel and how i've felt for so long now that i'm fed up and tired and its just enough now i need this bloody tummy to go away and away forever !