Ouch

Well, today I had my last exam for this year which is good except that it was Physics and didn't go well, i've still got an important language assessment before the end of term which i'm freaking about cause i need good grades in that - oh and also I trapped two of my left fingers in a door (where the hinges are) and i have 2 massive black bruised nails - and it really hurts so its quite difficult to be typing atm :S

So not in the best mood

I feel big cause my lunch is still in me and its easy just to cheat cause in a way I like anorexia because its proof that i am thin (ie not just my perspective or people's opinion cause they could be lying)although i seem to be getting all the problems like, being cold, hair falling out but also get the problems with recovering ie hormones and acne and obviously - the gaining weight bit and feeling fat !

i really don't want to gain anymore i want to start toning now ! I mean what good will it do if i get to that weight then start exercising but carry on putting on weight AND THEN put on MORE weight with the muscle i'm making from exercising ???? :@

its annoying not having two of your most used fingers ! so atm i find myself incapable of doing much unless it involves one hand - don't know how i'm going to eat my dinner tonight ? shit

Have a good weekend people <3